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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 11:48

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Ive learnt so much.

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Would this be the day?

One cannot live in the past .

Why don't I get sleep at nights?

What did i know ?

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

If my boyfriend watches porn, does it mean he doesn’t think I’m good enough? If I am good enough, why does he still watch? Am I not beautiful enough?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I couldn’t, believe it.

I don,t even have a pension.

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

What's the most sordid activity you've ever seen or heard about at a bachelorette party?

I never cut or harmed myself..

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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(And it was in our own minds.)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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She found it foreign!.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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But ive been too sick for many years..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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I said to her

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

How do I convince flat earthers that the earth is round?

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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I will be 64.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My wife found I had been on Pornhub. She considers this adultery and wants a divorce. She hasn't touched me in over 6 years. What should I do?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

How good do you sing and how do you know this?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Who then, do I blame.?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Why do you allow your cat to lie in bed with you?

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

So whats the point in blame.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Put me off passion for life!!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

When she asked me how she looked .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Comes on , in middle age.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She loved him until the end.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I was very sick at this time too.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Why did i forgive my father ?

My family never makes their pension either.

I have no regrets .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was scared of men, in general

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

This is soul school!.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I think the readers, may guess!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

But it wasn’t much.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was 9 years of age.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was seconnd youngest,

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But, we were locked up after school.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My life is so biszare .

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We all went to grammer schools

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And i lived it daily.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He resisted the act ,that day.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I write beautiful poetry .

She was in good health!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i do to all so called friends.?

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She wouldn,t have been !

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She married twice! .

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Im still living with it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I waited trembling.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

So, i spoilt her more .

He knew the spot.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

It was going to be , some day.

We were not on the streets..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

All the time i was locked up.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !